The let-down

Today, my brain is screaming "give me a reason to live!" This catastrophization is the result of me taking my medication late. There are shakes, as if going into withdrawal, dry lips and weak knees, and tears. All symptoms of the let-down. On days like these, my sanity is lost.      


My psychologist says, that I become easily overwhelmed by “emotional clogs”.   Too much information – too much stimuli – too many emotions – and, it’s goodbye rational thinking.   My brain is a puzzle, each piece a different emotion or thought. Logically, I know they should all fit together. But I just can’t seem … Continue reading Blind.


It’s part of me – the Snap.   It can be triggered by anything. One minute I’m fine and the next,   I’m fucking not.   I’m a grenade, just pull my pin and I’ll explode.   Sometimes it’s meaningless things; like – someone chewing loudly. You know the kind, wet and right up in your … Continue reading Snap.